I have been on a diet my whole life. I think I went from being an infant, to a size ten. Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating a bit, but for as long as I can remember I have always been worried about my weight. At the beginning of my sophmore year in highschool I weighed in at 164 pounds. That was a hard time for me. I was surrounded by teenagers who had beautiful bodies and I wanted to be one of those girls. During that year I began to follow Weight Watchers and I lost a total of 36 pounds. I was so proud of myself. My mommy expressed how proud she was of me as well and then said something that will stick with me the rest of my life "Nikki, with the type of genes you have, you will always struggle with your weight if you're not careful." I appreciate my mother for being honest with me, because here it is ten years later and I struggle with my weight.
I recently had a conversation with my cousin about weight. As I was listening to her it dawned on me that she and I think about our weight EVERY day. Seriously, not a day goes by that I don't think about how much weight I want to lose or how uncomfortable I feel in my current body. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be fit and healthy, but it becomes a problem when all of your thoughts are consumed by it.
Am I the only one struggling with this? Has anyone went through the same thing, but overcame it? Help.
I have struggle with self confidence issues because of my weight most of my life too, since high school at least. And still today i wan't and feel like i need to loose weight because i would feel more secure with myslef but that though doesn't consume my everyday life. I have come to accept my body the way it is and i have learned that the only way you can make a positive and significant change is if you learn to love yourself inconditionnaly. You have to be your best friend. Before i used to hate alot about myself ( body wise) but now i look at myself in the mirror and see so many things i love like my eyes, my height, the color of my skin, my lips..ect
ReplyDeleteI could really go on and on...Bottom line, you have to bring out the best in you, learn to appreciate certain features on your body and accent thoses with the way you dress and with makeup.
And i'm not saying you have to hide behind artificial things, only that they should help you bring out the beauty in you. Learn about what is flattering for your figure, what color eyeshadow complement your skin color better.
And with this nurture your confidence, tell yourself positive messages, Know that you are beautiful or that you have the potential to bring out your beauty and your only hiding it right now with the low image you have of yourself. Be proud of who you are inside and out.
With all of this, take matters into your own hands, if you feel like you need to loose weight either because you have a high BMI or because you just don't feel comfortable in your own skin, than do something about...research information on what you should eat, how you should eat it and what type of exercice you should do. And you can target one area of your body at a time.
For example, i wan't to mainly loose belly fat, so i try to do lots of exercices to help me with that. Afterwards i think i will target having a firmer butt.
Anyways sorry for the long reply but as soon as i read your post i felt so concerned because i had gone through the same thing! I wish you the best and hopefully you'll remember that it only depends on you, the way you see it and how you decide to act because of it!
Thanks girl! There are things that I LOVE about myself. I just know that once I start working out more I will feel better about myself and more confident. Thanks again :-)
ReplyDeletei am unfortunately the same way. as far back as I can remember weight has been a pressing annoyance on my mind. Do I live all day everyday thinking of it? no....but it's always there, when I want to shop and wish that I could be a size 4/6, when I'm out with all of my friends who fall in the size 2-6 range...when I note that i've never worn a bikini and would like to....thinking back on how i would have acted different in high school and college if I were tinier....it's amazing to think back on how much weight plays a role...good post
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Thanks Javonne! I recently joined L.A. Fitness and I am loving it. You should check them out, no contracts, so I just pay from month to month.
ReplyDeleteI just came across your blog and it is soo funny that I read this because I was thinking about this same exact thing today. I've always been heavy. I lose 50 pounds and then I gain it all back. No matter what I do. My weight is constantly on my mind.I think about it before going to bed and when I wake up in the morning. It is kind of scary because I don't anything should consume my thoughts as much as my weight does.You are not alone. Thanks for sharing a sentiment that I think many women share.
ReplyDeleteNo problem Ruth! Thanks for sharing as well :)
ReplyDeleteSo strange. I know EXACTLY what you're talking about. I was reading this post and found that I had done some of the exact same things. I was in Junior high then high school and found myself constantly thinking about my weight.....constantly! I went on weight watchers and lost i don't know how many pounds but it was a lot.....took me from a size 16 to an 8! Those were the days! Looking back at that time, it's just so strange. It's like I didn't appreciate it i guess. My mom told me something quite similar, she said, "You look good, you better enjoy it, it's easy to loose that shape if you're not careful." She was right. I gained the weight back when I went off to college. The thing is, is that I really didn't even notice! it was like one day I woke up and my fav outfit wouldn't fit! LOL (I proceeded to blame the dryer) Every since then I've had weight on my mind CONSTANTLY. It's not something I go around and talk about every second of the day, but it's that annoying thing in the back of your mind constantly. It's like a constant weight. I guess in a way, you kind of feel trapped, and everyone else is out there living, freely. I slowly started to get back on weight watchers and started walking everyday. I think that once i started doing something, the weight of always thinking about my weight lifted with each good thing i did for myself.
ReplyDeleteI think about it everyday. there isnt a day im not lifting up my shirt and looking at my stomach. But, im trying to learn to love myself no matter what .. & i just echo what everyone is saying ; look at the positive (:
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